A gap in my knowledge
A girl I know said some pretty nice things to me not too long ago:
What can I say about you? You make my brain laugh, hurt, feel insuperior (a task in itself), explode, swim, and crave ramen noodle soup. You are truly a catch and anyone who's brain can withstand your awesome power needs to be studied. I'm so glad that I know you, even if it makes my brain melt.
Pretty heartwarming stuff, isn't it? Well, I thought so at least. However, after a few minutes of pondering over her words, a few thoughts started to pop into my mind...
You Think Too Much
Truth be told, I felt a little sad, but that's mainly because, (a) I'm a massive Drama Queen, and, (b) I have the disturbing tendency to blow things massively out of proportion.
Now, I don't want to sound arrogant or anything, but I fancy myself to be a reasonably well-rounded person; I'm somewhat intelligent, reasonably educated, fairly rational, and on the Female Jerk-O-Meter of Guyhood, I think that while I rate considerably lower than Prince Charming, I do rank somewhat above Prince Charles. Hopefully.
So this wonderful and kind person (God bless her) decides to expound on the virtues of my wonderful cranium. Then all of a sudden, I started to think: is that really all there is to me? My supposed massive intelligence? I mean, she's known me for two years. Okay, so we weren't bosom buddies, but she's seen enough of my interactions with other people we know that I'd like to think she can recognize some of my other virtues. There has to be more to me than just my head, right? I can't have fabricated all of this feeling out of nowhere inside my head...this has to have a legitimate basis in reality - shouldn't it?
I Seem To Have Lost Control
A few other people I've come to know have told me about something that no one's ever really told me before: that perhaps the reason why I have trouble socializing with people is that I unconsciously put myself so far above them that they feel intimidated by me, and because of that people are distanced from me. Which got me to realizing that perhaps it was a genuine problem on my part: I was acting arrogant about who I was, about what, and how much I knew, and it was something I needed to stop. But...what if that wasn't really the main cause? I mean, I can't help using words and phrases that people don't understand and know. No, really. Looking at everything I've written so far, the only "technical" or uncommon word I've used is "cranium". But how obscure is that word? Starbucks sold a board game called Cranium, and there was a fairly widespread ad for some kind of car accessory that was jokingly billed as being suited to fit "on the average cranium". And even if you didn't know what that word meant, in our modern day, education is only a
google:define
function away. Whatever the reason, there seems to be this recurring trend among people I know that I apparently possess this massive well of intelligence inside of me, and because of that there seems to be this "ooh, ahh" factor which people seem to have about me. And people feel intimidated, turned off by it, perhaps. It puts up a wall between me and others: a wall which makes emotionally meaningful dialogue just too hard. All of a sudden, conversations shrivel up and die because the other party tries to say something but can't because of the all-encompassing fear of looking "too stupid". And I try to control it by stressing that no that won't happen because (a) I happen to care very deeply about my friends, and (b) I get that every day I'm at school, so why the hell would I do that to others? Being put on an ivory tower may seem fine and dandy for a few minutes, but after a while it gets really lonely up there.
Are You Special?
...which brings me to my point. We as a society attach a mystique to what we percieve as "intelligence". That person is so, so smart...how could he know so much? How could he get good grades? I'm sure we all know The Guy who our friends of our friends know who parties all day, drinks all night, doesn't crack a book, and yet effortlessly sails through all of his courses (this could easily be a girl of course, I'm just using the masculine terms for convenience's sake). Now I admit there are some truly naturally brilliant people out there. People who fall to the most extreme right tail of the bell-curve distribution of "intelligence", measured by whatever metric you plase. But how often do we know people like that? How common are they? Surely not every music student we know is Mozart or Mendelssohn. Every art student isn't a Picasso or a Rembrandt. And every science student isn't Einstein or Hawking.
My humble opinion, which is of course backed up by absolutely no empirical evidence whatsoever, is that most people are, well, normal. And in fact, I'm willing to grant that the majority of the people who enjoy success in the intellectual sense merely live their lives in such a way that they do what they need to do, to do well; things which are perfectly mundane and easily practiced by any ordinary human being. Their apparent intellectual superiority is not the result of the cosmic stars aligning on the night of their birth to grant them superhuman ability; it's simply an interest in what they do, and the desire to do it. To use myself as an example, I like to search for things I don't know about on Google or Wikipedia, or I look them up in books, if I can. I'm curious about the world around me and I want to know more. I don't think that makes me smarter or any more special than anyone else I know. It sure as hell doesn't grant me a special level of intelligence which elevates me above others around me. It sure as hell doesn't make smarter. A tad more informed than I was before, perhaps, but knowledge and intelligence are two different things.
If you've gotten this far maybe you're thinking that I should just shut up and take my compliment with grace and style.
So I will. Erin...thank you.
3 Comments:
That is the funniest blog post I have read in a long time that isn't related to politics. Justin it's hyper cool that your grey matter is firing on more cylinders than your average person. Be proud of the fact you are inquisitive and intense about stuff. It's very very cool....in an extremely geeky kind of way....hope you are doing well in any case and don't overanalyse compliments so much.
Intelligence is not all that is to you from whatever little I have seen at the boards - but perhaps, that is one factor which outshines the other qualities. In psychological language, that would be the 'dominating' trait. And it's not that you are just simply intelligent, but it is the way you articulate your thoughts.
If many people expressed their opinion on the same topic after reading the same news article or watching the same news - it will all still come out different. And only a few of them will actually make sense or have a considerable and a fruitful impact.
The presence of intelligence as well as the absence of it will makes any person special in terms of higher intellect or retardation.
The curiosity and the effort that you profess is the reason behind your knowledge is present in almost everyone - but perhaps, to what extent and how one internalizes and projects things ater the curiosity has been satisfied and the effort made towards understanding so-and-so is what marks one person different from the other?
Justin there is more to you than just your brain. Inside is a interesting and complex individual.
I just think that your intelligence is like a huge bonfire that makes puts people in a trance when they encounter it...it takes them awhile to take in the various other sides of you.
On another note... it is still a sweet comment...
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